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Thursday, January 1st, 2004

Time: 2:21 pm.
Mood: drained.
Music: Arch Enemy--Burning Angel.

actually managed to survive New years, somehow. We started off the night at Josh's to get a good buzz going and so "Nugecore" could do they thang. They surprsingly sound good with a drummer, though, that will probably be the last time that happens. Then we took a field trip back to Eastie to go to Rich's cousin's house and chill there and yes drink even more. By the time we got there ( a few minutes between midnight) Kevin and Erik were the only two to actually stay, Rickie being long gone with his "woman", and Rich left after we all watched the fireworks. Didn't watch them so much as decided it was a good idea to just start drinking vodka with Kevin while waiting for the fireworks to end. I'm kinda pissed that I didnt get my Hello Kittie stuff especially when good ole captian black tooth told me he was just stayin there for the night and drinking. And the other stupid jackass leaving early bah, its like hi *hug* happy new year *hug* bye. i guess the concept of oh i want to hang out with you and kevin on newyears was a bit too much for him to grasp. It was fun though, the guys bonded, but thats what booze chicken wings and talk of opeth can do. Erik and I pointed and giggled at eachother being drunk. We also decided that we should hangout more often, because we only see eachother when we're with Kevin or Rich. Dave and I walked them home and just came back here and slept. Now I just have that day after drinking grossness and need to go take a shower. Hopefully it will make my head feel better, though most of the pain is due to the fact I whacked my head off the low entryway thing into the basement last night. The cut's little but it hurts.
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Friday, December 26th, 2003

Time: 1:09 am.
Mood: sleepy.
Music: Chevelle--One Lonley Visitor//NOFX happy breakup song.

Am I alone in here?
Am I alone in here?
Am I alone in here?
Am I alone in here?

Knew you were here,
Sister confirmed suspicions,
And beside the note,
That you left on my bed,
Where I held you close,
Did you think I’d forget?
Couldn’t be more of a mess,
For to breathe,
Used to be another way,
I’d take you in.

Well it’s time to wake up,
And separate feelings,
That I keep falling into,
What seems like good reasons,
But I feel a break down,
I don’t care if it shows up,
I’m praying this for you,
Until its answered I'll say.

Now it seems there’s a choice,
That began with a break,
Listen today,
Know that never again,
Will I know you that way.

Well it’s time to wake up,
And separate feelings,
That I keep falling into,
What seems like good reasons,
But I'm gonna break down,
I don’t care if it shows up,
I’m praying this for you,
Until its answered I'll say.

Am I alone in here?
Am I alone in here?
Am I alone in here?
Am I alone in here?
Am I alone in here?
Am I alone in here?
Am I alone in here?
Am I alone in here?
Am I alone in here?
Am I alone in here?
Am I alone in here?
Am I alone in here?

I hate christmas, though I did get Amelie on DVD (thank you dave) and some decent shit (new studded belt cause my other one is broked) and cool socks. I got mall gift certificates, which is good except the fact that I actually have to go to the mall to spend them. fucking malls. There was also a rumor of something involving hello kitty, but I'm not sure about that.
Now there's New Years to deal with.. UGH..

I'm quitting Claires, I fucking hate that place and have had enough of that place. Plus they'll owe me my last two pay checks, which will come in handy while I try to find a new job. Whatever
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Wednesday, December 24th, 2003

Time: 12:32 am.
Mood: loved.
Music: Brand New--Okay I believe you but my tommy gun doesn't.

You are Beaker.
You are very tense, stressed and paranoid. You hate
furthering the cause of science, as it tends to
get you blown up.

SPECIAL TALENTS:
Scientific assistant, Victim
LAST BOOK READ:
"1001 Meeps to a Bigger Vocabulary"

FAVORITE MOVIE:
"Run Silent, Run Meep"

QUOTE:
"Meep! Meep! Meep!"

NEVER LEAVES HOME WITHOUT:
Medical Coverage

What Muppet are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

I need to go do xmas wrapping
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Tuesday, December 23rd, 2003

Time: 12:55 am.
Mood: disappointed.
Music: AFI--Home is Nowhere.

*HUGS* TOTAL!
give ebros_mosh_song more *HUGS*

Get hugs of your own

Hate email would be so much easier to send if the person would actually ignore you like he's supposed to. Bah stop calling so I can hate you properly. Call Rich or something and tell him your sorry about his grandmother. I think he would appreciate hearing from you alot more than I would, though our disdain for you is about equal. Ahhh well, time for bed, too tired for hate

I HATE CHRISTMAS!!!!!
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Friday, December 19th, 2003

Subject: A Nation of Weary Eyed Geeks
Time: 12:58 am.
Mood: awake.
Music: Static X-get to the gone.

So yes, Tuesday night we took a fieldtrip to see Return of the King, which was a damn good flick. The battle scenes were awsome. It was cool to see how they did Smeigel becoming Gollum, and I was all kinds of psyched that he had a bigger role in this one. Merry, Pipin and Sam were also quite the shit. The only complaint I had was Frodo, hes just a bitch, what more can I say. Sam was savin ass like crazy. The battle scenes were definatley the best part of the whole thing >-<

Bright eyes is playing in Boston in Feb, yay. Yes I realize its all the way in Feb but yay nonetheless. I know I'm probably forgetting something too, but fuck it. I can't remember, I'm too hungry.
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Tuesday, December 16th, 2003

Subject: Black Metal and Emo for Boys
Time: 9:06 pm.
Mood: geeky.
Music: Limp Wrist--Limp Wrist vs Dr Laura.

Saturday night, hit up the Palladium with Dave to see Hypocricy, Nevermore, Children of Bodom and Dimmu Borgir. Hypocricy was pretty good, even though we had never heard them and actually thought they were Nevermore at first because their big sign was all ready down. It comforted me to know that it wasn't them because I've always thought Nevermore fucking sucked, and they still do. Children of Bodom was good, but their set was way to fucking short. Dimmu was fucking awsome plain and simple, and they put on a pretty good stage show too. We met up with Marci and a friend of her's too, and spent most of Nevermore's set with them just dickin around, which was cool. All and all it was well worth the money and effort to get to and from Worcester
Last night, saw From Autumn to Ashes and Avenge Sevenfold at Axis, which was equally good but for different reasons that I can't quite figure out. I was never too big on Avenge Sevenfold, but they were actually really good. From Autumn to Ashes was lovley. They did most of the shit from their new cd which was good but they did "Cherry Kiss" "The Switch" and "Royal Crowne Vs the Blue Duchess" so I was ridiculosly happy. >-<
Later I'm goin to a midnight thing at the Lowes in Sommerville with Dave and some of his friends to see Return of the King. God I need a fucking life.

Working on figuring out what I want to do on New Years. Still have no clue
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Saturday, December 13th, 2003

Subject: Stole from Someone Else's Journal
Time: 12:35 am.
Mood: restless.
Music: Rilo Kiley--Rest of my life.

Comment and I mean it.
Post a comment in reply to this entry, use my space.
-A story
-A secret
-A confession
-A fear
-A love
-An opinion
-A critique
-A picture
-ABSOLUTELY FUCKING ANYTHING
But make sure it's anonymous.
Promise (no crossies count.) not to track you down.
Be honest.

I wish I was drunk. This song is such bullshit.
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Friday, December 12th, 2003

Subject: No, I've never felt so Seperate.
Time: 11:53 pm.
Mood: weird.
Music: Bright eyes--Patient Hope in New Snow.

Went to Harvard Square with Mike, had fun, exchanged two of the cds I bought as part of Dave's ~Xmas gift for two better ones and only had to pay 9 extra bucks cause the used ones I returned were only worth 19. Then made my way over to Kevin's and chilled with him and Rich. Probably the first time I talked more to Kevin with Rich chillin with us. It was kinda nice. Now I just have this fucked up funny feeling that has nothing to do with anything except the bringing of others down
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Tuesday, December 9th, 2003

Time: 10:18 am.
Mood: indifferent.
Music: Sworn Enemy.

Don't you hate when work dicks you over, the manager fucks up scheduling to suit herself and you end up doing the work of two people. Yeah I love when that happens too. And apparently the whole math class is getting IPs cause the new guy that took over is too fucking lazy to let us finish the tests for the final. Oh well, guess I'm atleast done with math
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Time: 12:25 am.
Mood: aggravated.
Music: Employer, Employee.

Why do I bother even trying to share any of the good things. There's no point to it. For the sake of arguement my life sucks. But I did get the nicest letter today >-<

I've never been a fan of self discovery or bettering myself, this probably makes a horribly shallow and bad person. I've just never cared enough. Pretty sure I'm going to hell, oh well, Saturday I get to go see Dimmu Borgir :-D
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Friday, December 5th, 2003

Time: 2:23 pm.
Mood: hungry.
Music: Daughters-The Ghost with the Most.

Got my first pay check from Claires yesterday and it was a lovley sum that I went shopping with (call it buying myself birthday presents if you will) I bought

1. Slayer hoodie (warm as shit)
2. Converge DVD (all live stuff and even two full sets)
3. Rebought On Broken Wings "some of us may never see the world". I'm glad to have it back.
4. DRI Dirty Dirtiest because thrash is a good thing
5. Sworn Enemy "As Real as it gets"
6. Napalm Death "Fear Emptiness Despair"
7. Dimmu Borgir "Death Cult Armageddon"
8. The Dresden Dolls " A is for Accident" a is also for all live demo
9. plain black army type hat
10 Motorhead teeshirt
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Thursday, December 4th, 2003

Time: 10:35 pm.
Mood: pissed off.
Music: Dresden Dolls--Miss Me.

its wicked funny how shady people are sometimes, but i think ill just play stupid and go along with the whole thing.

anything else i have to say right now really isn't worth it...
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Wednesday, December 3rd, 2003

Time: 2:23 pm.
Mood: rejuvenated.
Music: Bright eyes--its cool we can still be friends.

There's something kinda sad about this song.

I should really start cleaning up, my house is such a fucking mess. But it was nice to be able to sleep for once.

"...I'm pouring myself some whiskey im gonna get real fucking drunk that i pass out and forget your face by the time I wake up.."
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Tuesday, December 2nd, 2003

Subject: Why can't yah be nicer to me?
Time: 10:59 am.
Mood: restless.
Music: Lamb of God--Black Lable/Pariah.

I'm such a jerk sometimes, I really am, but its not like it was completley unwarranted. But sometimes, it takes being mean to get some sort of reaction out of people, like saying hey, if you don't start treating me a little better my ass is outta here. If they don't make the effort then fuck em, but its kinda nice when they do,and are even willing to take a night off of work. So I guess it might be 5 of us instead of four going on Saturday night. Maybe six because I texted Steve and said he was welcome to come too, which would be cool because I haven't seen him in ages either

Bleh I have to be to work in a few (god I fucking hate that place, but on the bright side Dave's meeting me after so we can go chill and do nothing), at school now. Showed up pretty much for nothing because the teacher couldn't be bothered to show up, which fucks the whole class because we're all trying to pass with only like two weeks left in the semester. And I'm supposed to pass this class how? Bitch better give me a fucking IP worst comes to worst. Hey its better than a full on F.
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Sunday, November 30th, 2003

Time: 12:51 am.
Mood: exhausted.
Music: Give up the Ghost--Since Always.

What the fuck?
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Tuesday, November 25th, 2003

Time: 12:47 am.
Mood: awake.
Music: The Damned--Don't Cry Wolf.

Do it
Some scars are meant to be worn with pride
Everyday is knowledge to use in life
A lesson lived is a lesson learned
Setbacks used to propel me forward
Misjudgement taken as force to do right
A better outlook a mindset of power
Each day resolve and reform

A lesson lived is a lesson learned
You've got to fend yourself
A lesson lived is a lesson learned
Everyday is a lesson

Said so many things that I wish I could retract
I got my issues, I've got my demons
Finished what I began and finally saw
It's how you use the knowledge you've been given
Stood tall when others would have turned and run
Put my work in when everyone quit
Claw and tear for everything i have
And I've only just begun

A lesson lived is a lesson learned
You've got to fend yourself
A lesson lived is a lesson learned
Everyday is a lesson

A lesson lived is a lesson learned--Hatebreed
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Monday, November 24th, 2003

Time: 10:22 pm.
Mood: hyper.
Music: Avenge Sevenfold--Warmness of the Soul.

Its scary, I've actually been productive today, not used to that heheh. Oh yes, got my reembersment(sp?) check, lovley $560, and do not know why they keep sending it to me but I aint fucking questioning. Is the semester over yet??
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Sunday, November 23rd, 2003

Time: 2:21 am.
Mood: cynical.
Music: Rufus Wainright--Instant Pleasure.

Just for the record, he has told me where he thinks its going, but thats one of those things I keep for myself. Plus we're just stupid little kids who don't know shit about shit. Hell we're too stupid to even know what love is, what's that, I dunno and neither does he. I mean how could we, we don't even have sex, and rumor has it, that's supposed to be the big thing that shows two people care about eachother. We just have it all wrong. Don't worry though, this whole thing doesn't have a long life. So instead of waiting for this little joke to run its course for me to say your right, I'll just say it now. Happy now??

Work's ok, my eyes hurt from all the pink in the place.
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Friday, November 21st, 2003

Time: 10:34 pm.
Mood: peaceful.
Music: Elliot Smith--I'm going to Love you anyhow.

I start working at Claire's tommorow BLAH, its going to fucking suck but its a job, yes, its just seasonal which is good because I quit every job within a month, if not less anyway. The thing that makes all of this worse is that its the one at the stupid Galleria so not only am I stuck in pop pink puke hell for 8hours straight, but I'm at the fucking mall. Anymore than a month there I may be driven to murder. What the fuck, its money right?

Saw Elf and Mystic River, both quality flicks. Dave wants to come do family shit with me on Thanksgiving, I always knew there something severly wrong with that boy. Oh yes, look at my pretty new pic, tis be The Dresden Dolls
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Wednesday, November 19th, 2003

Time: 10:51 pm.
Mood: uncomfortable.
Music: From Autumn to Ashes--Autumn Monolouge.

You know, you get used to keeping the good things to yourself, for better or worse.
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