Hindsight said

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All these things people are posting true or false doesn't matter. What matters is that ANYONE who has fallen into a life of addiction has become their own worst enemy. Heroin especially, destroys every single thing in it's path. And no-one is immune to the grip of this evil entity. You should not be so quick to judge anyone, each addict is somebody to someone, no matter how far away from themselves they travel into the land of self inflicted hell. Matt Gittings is not the person who has been involved in what has been posted, Matt Gittings is a loyal, generous and loving person. The Matt that has been affiliated with the horrible stuff written above is no longer the same person who I knew, he is not capable of being who he was or should have been because he has been trapped into the lies of drugs. I understand that in times of tragedy and death people want, need, to lay blame in order to find closure and make sense of that which doesn't,but even then, after finding a location to point blame at, the events past don't change, the hurt doesn't go away. Death is real, and addiction is real. The longer people keep trying to hide it,run away from it,condemn those in is midst, the longer the trail of pain,lies,death will become. Stop pointing fingers and talking shit. If the things said above are true, it only shows how horrible drug addiction is for the addicted. The Matt Gittings I know, the real person, would never have wished any of this on anyone. He loved his friends and girlfriend deeply, and would have done anything for anyone in need. In fact, that's exactly how he got entangled in this whole heroin bullshit to begin with. I don't know you that are posting, but I'm willing to bet that many of you were right there by his side,as I was, many many days and nights in the beginning when this was just about fun curiosity, feeling good and partying. I bet many of you stood or sat there beside Matt,and possibly me waiting for your share, asking him for more, convincing him to credit you till payday, begging him to deliver to you at home. And guess what? He always did, cause that's who he was. Not a greedy monster,set on ending your life...but a friend who wanted to help anyone he cared about, to take away your sadness, to ease your bad moods, to find solace and camaraderie in the bleak moments of life. I actually remember one conversation where he, Matt, worried that the people he considered friends might just be using him, it seemed that they'd only call to borrow money,or they felt sick and needed more. I'm thinking now, that although I replied that he was probably just making a big deal about nothing, that perhaps I was incorrect because I hear all of you banishing him,putting him down, saying bad things. But no one has said a thing about wanting to get him help, being a true friend and reaching out. You all wish him to die? Wow, no wonder he has slipped so far away from the person I once knew, it appears that not a goddamned one of anyone has done a thing except grease up your hands and push him further down into heroins deep well of torture. Educate yourselves, or keep sitting there and type hatred and I guarantee that even if you get rid of him, you'll still not rid your world of friends and family who will die from overdose. Oh,and I'm not hiding anonymously my name is Missy Smith